When I am out of synch (part 15)

Therefore there are two things that cause me to go out of synch. I have allowed myself to become blinded and I no longer fear and respect the LORD God or His power. On the other hand I can delude myself to believing that I can profess to have God in my heart and to really know Him. I can believe that He is in, and solely in, the letter of the law, and that if I take the law as His checklist then I can earn my way to a seat right by Him, and thinking I am not like the sinners, thank God, I am not like the lost, thank you Lord, and Lord look at me what I have done for you, and how much my worship just demonstrates how much I love you and how much I do for you in worship. Look at me. I can delude myself into thinking I’ve got it made because I can answer Jesus’ question about keeping the law that he put to the rich young ruler. Yet if I have not an attitude of love, compassion, humility and if I don’t understand that if it wasn’t for God’s grace and mercy I too would be desolate and indigent in both spirit and physical goods, what is my worship for? No, when I am out of synch I believe I can tell God what His worship needs is my input. To get myself back in order, I need to bring my worship to the level of sheer reverence for God, to seek His will and not mine. I used to belong to a wonderful congregation of servants. They worked at Crisis Assistance, they fed the homeless in numerous ways, they funded Haiti and the World Bible School and the list is endless of what they were doing to help spread God’s message and help the community. But they lacked one thing, who to worship on Sunday mornings? There was so much to do, they forgot their first love and that God demands our thoughts, our energy, our time. And while I am not their judge, for I do overdo and instead of putting God first, put Him on the back burner until I have time for Him, I nonetheless needed to find a congregation whose interest in works in the community were there but whose time spent with God was also important. As far as that goes, while Jesus was indeed a busy man, he nonetheless took time out to seek the face of God, to be in communication with the Father, in quietude, in solitude and with His brethren, always. Jesus did not move rapidly, but thoughtfully and with a purpose. And I too must do that always, or I will forever be in and out of synch. And there will come a time when God will send an evil spirit upon me, because that is what is left to get me to come to Him. All He wants is me.