When I am out of sych (part 18)

And then I am willing to risk the fire of hell for my moments that I think I deserve. And I can see Him throwing up His hands to say “Why, why?” But yet He is willing to deliver and heal me, while I am yet a sinner. Why? I don’t have a clue. It wouldn’t be me, in my self-righteous mode I go. But I do know that when I treat God badly I am in for it eventually, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but I cannot live in His house and not follow His rules. He says I break the rules, there are always consequences, and that has always been the case, whether I disobeyed my parents or whether I disobeyed my teachers in school, or whether I disobey God. I will be punished. What I fail to see is that while there are those that seem to get away with whatever they want they really aren’t, God is preparing something for them too. He just doesn’t want what I do to get me so off line because knowing my heart He knows that’ll happen quite easily. He punishes me now because He loves me. It’s when He doesn’t punish me that I begin to worry, that maybe He is giving me over to my sinful nature. But God’s mercy is infinite and boundless. (Jeremiah 10:19-25) If Isreal or His people in the church that have strayed just come back to Him then He’ll welcome them with open arms. And God knows that if I am happy with a particular lifestyle, then perhaps He should let me wallow in it awhile so that I can truly see how awful I am, much as what happened before I was saved. (Jeremiah 18:11-18) Because consequences are really the only thing that bring anyone of us back, and sometimes these take time to develop and sometimes not. Consequences are the only thing that brings a scattered, tattered and torn people to their knees. And yet He still promises that I and all nations are invited to come to Him and to return to Him. (Jeremiah 50:4-7) He calls and desires all should come to Him and that is why He sent His son – but this is the last chance. I have only to believe that His son saves and only His son. But I have to believe that or He cannot save us. Because if I don’t believe that, I will surely not believe anything else about Him, least of all His promises.