Saturday, January 19, 2013

When I am out of synch (part 19)


When I sin, things eventually go badly for me, if not for my heart then with things physically. I am in a desert and will not be blessed. (Ezek 5:5-17) God promises to give me an out, allowing me the chance to repent. Because I have told Him in baptism I am His and He is mine, and while I cannot force God to sever that relationship, I myself can choose to deny it and live how I want to live. (Hos 2:1-23) But I must take Him seriously. My repentance must be godly sorrow. (II Cor??). Not because I get caught in my sin, but because I know I did wrong and I want to do what is right. I want to change. I may not want to die to myself and lose all the bonds of sin, but I know the only way to do this is to die to myself and put on Christ, living as He does, walking as He does. I need to humble myself in His presence – although it may hurt and may not be what I want to do, in fact not what I want to do at all. But it is what will bring me back into His throne room, submitting to His rules, because I am choosing God and I can go to Him and love Him the way He wants. That’s God’s way. Obey Him and His commands, love of God according to Christ is obeying commandments and they are not many. Just two. Actually following God is the paradox of being easier and harder than thought of. Easier because there are only two commandments that God is so desiring of me to follow. Hard because God has given those two commandments knowing that I am so legalistic I will look for something more, putting my aspirations and expectations on others and watching to see them measure up.

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