How well I know that sin is
a disease only God can cure! My sin of lust has led me to do many things that I
perhaps would disdain and call evil, but I was at one point in my life (and can
again be, given the right circumstances) caught up in them. God calls me
righteous in spite of myself because my prayer allows me to communicate with
Him and only Him, going into His throne room. God in the form of the
Jehovah-Raphthe heals all wounds, especially those caused by sin. (Ps 38:1-20).
And while I am in the midst of my struggle against this sin, and while I am
being tempted and tried, and while I am falling from such heights, God gives me
the strength and peace and will fill me with His truth, if I will only keep my
focus and thoughts upon Him and His glory. Because of God and His great
judgments and mercies, I can worship and be joyful in Him and praise Him and
please Him, much as David in Psalms 43:1-5. And while those that are deceitful
will try to pull me away with temptations, God will still save me if I maintain
my focus on Him. (Psalm 38:20-22) It is not difficult asking for help when my
enemies are those who do not believe. The rubber meets the road when people
that worship with me are the same as those that hurt me. It is when those that
call themselves my brothers and sisters spurn or criticize or ridicule me that
my heart is really sore and that I come to realize that they do not realize
what they are doing, much as I do not know what I am doing when I give into
temptations. For you see meanness is a temptation to be selfish and narrow. And
if I keep my focus still that God is forever and is faithful then this too
shall pass, and my relationships will be enjoyable or at least I will find some
enjoyable relationships elsewhere., because God knows I need those just to
combat the one sin of thinking I am unlovable. (Psalm 55:1-17) I already know
that some people will hate me, but that doesn’t bother me. There are those who
mock my worship of God and frankly I don’t care. God alone is worthy of my
thoughts and prayers and He alone has the power to overcome my enemies, no
matter who they are. (Ps 56:1-13)
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